A =O Moment

Yesterday's All-Night prayer meet was...amazing.

Due to late night studying for E-marketing and the downing of 2 cups of tea which I think had ominous hidden caffeine dosages..I only had 3 hours of sleep d other night. Woke up at 5.50am, and stayed on to fight the deadly battle of the exam which was brain straining. Ended up going to church feeeling all worned out and tired...didn't feel like worship leading at all.

In the 1st worship session, it was kinda hard for me to concentrate..all I cud think of was how tired I was, and how I longed to sleep..end up being pretty restless. Then my mind wandered to d next session I was about to lead, and I started to visualize how I shud sing d songs and all.. I'm not sure if it helps esp when you want a worship that is prepared but that also has room for spontaneity..cuz then it'll be so routine.. but it happens..at least to me =P

And funny thing was, so ngam we were singing "The Heart of Worship" that time..and then we got to the line - "I'll bring You more than a song, for a song in itself, is not what You have desired" then "You search much deeper within, through the way things appear, Your looking into my heart"

Then wham! It suddenly hit me, that God is reminding me that its not about d songs I'm gonna sing.. not how I shud sing it, what sequence it should be, what will work and what wouldn't.. He simply wanted my heart..the songs of my heart to Him! He wanted a genuine worship from my heart.. And with that I reminded myself, to give Him my heart, only my heart and not a string of songs when my session comes.

So then it was my turn..and the session was...pretty much unexpected =P

My guitar strap was dropping off my shoulder from time to time... my mouth/teeth kept hitting the mic when my eyes were closed..and I was focusing hard on playing the right chords (still can't memorize chords in songs =/) Sounds like one of the last things you want happening to you while worship leading huh? But funny thing was, where I thought I would start to feel awkward and get distracted with all these weird happenings, I just somehow..strangely..was unfazed by it all!

What was amazing was that I believe God actually took over d worship session! It didn't feel like worship leading at all really..His presence was just so overwhelming that it felt like He was leading and not me! I just felt like a member of the congregation, standing there and joining them in worshipping Him. Weariness and awkwardness just went out d window.. and God came into picture.

I was really really and still am...awed. I've no idea what happened last night, can't really describe it in proper sentences, but it was definitely God. All I can say was that we had an awesome-awesome encounter with The Almighty! He sure did come, and at an unexpected manner =)

After all the prayers of repentance, the surrendering of individual lives and ministeries to God..I was reminded about what Eunice shared in The Wall's Nightwatch 2 weeks ago bout the "fire" and "rain" experiences. I hope that's yst's awesome encounter won't be just a one-time "fire from heaven" experience of God, but the start of a constant drizzle of rain to end the spritual drought in our lives. I think maybe, that rain is coming soon...or has it already started?